Danger Close

Hello #hartnation, it’s been a while! I bet you’ve been wondering what’s going on with ya boy. Well the story of Wayne v Cancer has taken a turn for the worst.

Today marks almost exactly 1 year since the doctors discovered brain tumors in my head. At the time (Oct 2017) I was told that I had an innumerable number of them and the situation was pretty dire.

Since then we tried a number of treatment options ranging from new targeted therapy drugs to whole brain radiation to gamma knife surgery. The final two treatments: Lorlatinib (a targeted therapy drug) and Gamma knife surgery (where they used focal radiation on my brain to target all 47 tumours) were very effective and everything was going well until I got the results of my latest MRI on October 19, 2018. Sit down, buckle up and prepare to have your socks blown off…

Leptomeningeal Tumor

I’ll say it again for dramatic effect – leptomeningeal tumors. Essentially the worst possible news I could get.

Features of this tumor include the following:

  • Pretty much unstoppable.
  • Difficult to see on images. (MRI, CT etc)
  • Almost always terminal.
  • Grows between the skull and the sac that holds the brain.
  • Likes to infect the cerebral fluid.

So what do we do? No really I’m asking! What the hell do I do?!?! Anyone? Help! Please!

My radiation oncologist has offered me two plans of action:

  • Whole brain radiation.
    • More aggressive.
    • Tougher side effects on me.
    • Treats all of the brain, so the tumor will get fully treated.
  • Gamma knife again.
    • Less severe side effects.
    • More prone to missing some of the tumor.

Of course I chose the more aggressive option! At best this option will slow the beast down for some months. But nothing will stop it.

This news hit me hard. Really hard. We’ve been through some dark times before, but it always seemed like the doctors lined up some really good options for me. They had a plan no matter what it seemed. Now it looks like the end of the line. I’m scared. I really really don’t want to die. I want to watch my girls grow up and be there for them.

What’s next?

  • I have whole brain radiation therapy scheduled to start on October 31st at Sunnybrook hospital.
  • Spend as much time as possible with my kids, family, loved ones and you guys!
  • Keep fighting. Keep hoping.

Assorted musings.

Some of the things I’ve been thinking about a lot lately:

  • What’s dying like?
    • Is it going to hurt?
    • Is it going to be sudden or will it be slow and drawn out?
    • Will it be peaceful?
    • I don’t want to suddenly fall dead when my kids and I are hanging out.
    • How exactly is this tumor going to kill me? I know I can research that, but I’m honestly too scared to find out.
  • I don’t want my kids to forget about me.
  • I want people to remember as someone who brought at least one smile to their face. 🙂
  • Don’t delay spending time with friends and family. This year I had a friend with cancer pass away. In the months leading up to her passing we would chat often, and every time we ended our chat we would say “let’s do coffee soon!”. Well we both either got busy or was in treatment for something cancerous, and put it off too many times. Now she’s gone and we’ll never have that cup of coffee. Stop putting off spending time with the ones you care about. Stop.

Fun times? You bet there were!

Last year the brain tumors impeded my ability to walk. It sucked because I LOVE chasing my kids and going for bike rides with them! But we found other things to do, and the girls loved helping daddy! I could limp around and still have some fun with them!

Here are some awesome memories I cherish from this year:



Fun with friends!!


My loves

Google also made me this video, and I have to share!

That’s your update. I plan on fighting as hard as I can!

People often say to me:

  • Hang in there.
  • Keep fighting.
  • Stay strong.
  • Don’t lose hope.

So that’s the checklist I’m going to keep in my pocket.

I will leave you with one of my favourite videos of all time – My youngest daughter dancing her butt off!

6 comments on “Danger Close”

  1. Wayne Corrigan says:

    From one Wayne to another you are incredibly brave to share all of your thoughts and feelings in this media. You are one of the strongest guys I know and this is just another MMA round Tapping Out is not an option. I will put my money on you.

    Cheers 🍻

  2. Wayne Corrigan says:

    From one Wayne to another you are incredibly brave to share all of your thoughts and feelings in this media. You are one of the strongest guys I know and this is just another MMA round Tapping Out is not an option. I will put my money on you.

    Cheers and be strong 💪

    1. waynehart says:

      Thanks so much Wayne!

  3. Jenn Alaan says:

    I’m so sorry that this shitty cancer is happening to you, Wayne… Miracles are a thing because they do happen, and you’re due. Sending you strength and prayers always.

    1. waynehart says:

      Thanks so much!

  4. Jason Knox says:

    Hi Wayne. Not so good news. I made a comment last year when i first saw your story. As a cancer survivor and a fellow Trini brother i will tell you what it all boils down too. God and only god is in control, so give it to him as i did and continue to do so and i live and see what he continues to do for me. There is redemption in suffering and sickness is not of god! I will leave you with this as i heard it in church a couple of weeks from the sermon. "God did not save Daniel from the lions den, he saved him in the lions den". Fight and pray as you shall be in my prayers!!!! Dont give up! You are a brave brother!

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